We are still working on the house, and the bookcases for the office finally came in last week. I spent most of the weekend trying to fill 15 shelves full of goodies. So much harder than I thought!
I scavenged the house looking for books and nick-knacks and came across a stack of my old journals. Oh did I have fun reminiscing!! I laughed at how insecure I was as a teenager, how much I was in love with my sweetheart Chris, how hurt my heart was when I lost my family, and how hungry I was for God's word.
Junior High and High School honestly does not seem that distant from me, but I will be celebrating my 10 year reunion next year! (yikes) As I read through pages and pages of the "me of 10-15 years ago" I was reminded just how important it is for me to be striving to be the Titus 2 Woman.
Titus 2: 4-5 says that by looking at older women. "the younger women will know how to love their husbands and children, be virtuous and pure, keep a good house, be good wives."
I am so thankful for the women of faith God has put into my life that have showed me how to be a Godly woman, many of you are reading this right now. Even more of you are in the same walk of life and age as I am, or even younger, yet you are teaching me to be more like Him everyday. And trust me...... I have my moments where I hope that no one is watching me, but what a great reminder of God's instruction.
In 2 weeks I will begin my 3rd year as an E-Teen Community Bible Study leader. From September to March I shepard ten to twelve 7th & 8th grade girls for the school year. I am so thankful for God allowing me to be apart of young girls lives when they are most willing to listen about God's plan for them. In such an awkward and adventurous stage of life, God loves on them through me.
(2008-2009 CBS) Aren't they precious?
Just wanted to share a little something I had found jotted in one of my journals from yesteryear's. I don't remember writing this one, and honestly I am not even sure if it came from me. I googled the words and it looks like parts of it were taken from a Mariah Carey song :)
You look at me and see the girl
Who lives inside this golden world
She smiles through a thousand tears
And harbors adolescent fears
She dreams of all she can never be
She wades in her own insecurity
And hides herself inside of me.
Wow, life can be tough, especially to young girls who are trying to look like they have it all together....(ouch Lord, wrote this over the weekend-it's early Tuesday morning and I am proofreading- and you are speaking to me. Its' not just young girls. It's young mom's, young wives, trying to keep all the balls in the air to look like we have it all. And yet we have nothing without you...somedays Lord it's me that has forgotten who I am in you)
Lord, thank you for reminding me of your instruction to shepard younger women. It is a special gift to view the world through the eyes of a teenager; thank you for taking me back to those emotions as I prepare to get new faces to love on this year.
Forgive me of losing sight of where you have brought me from.; a scared, skinny, insecure, brace-faced girl ....... to a woman who has found her identity in You Lord. May my daily words and actions of chasing after You show them how to someday "love their husbands and children, be virtuous and pure, keep a good house, and be good wives".
And Lord may I not forget that those same insecurities and feelings of emptiness easily enter the scene of my marriage and my role as a mother. Forgive me for trying to have it all, do it all, and forgetting the most important part...You.
2 comments:
Amen, girl! I always love your insight and your encouragement to be the woman that God wants me to be and the challenge to let everyone see Him in all that I do each day. I love you and I love that God brought you into our family. Thank you for sharing!
P.S. Love the bookshelf, too! See you in a little over a week! Can't wait!
WOW, I honestly don't even know how to respond. This spoke so much to me. Thank you Sommer for being a Titus 2 woman. You truly have the heart of our Savior and radiate with his love and grace in all you do! THANK YOU for showing me how to love my husband and children :), to be virtous and pure, keep a good house and be an EXCELLENT wife! You are amazing!!!
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