Monday, August 31, 2009
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
We are still working on the house, and the bookcases for the office finally came in last week. I spent most of the weekend trying to fill 15 shelves full of goodies. So much harder than I thought!
I scavenged the house looking for books and nick-knacks and came across a stack of my old journals. Oh did I have fun reminiscing!! I laughed at how insecure I was as a teenager, how much I was in love with my sweetheart Chris, how hurt my heart was when I lost my family, and how hungry I was for God's word.
Junior High and High School honestly does not seem that distant from me, but I will be celebrating my 10 year reunion next year! (yikes) As I read through pages and pages of the "me of 10-15 years ago" I was reminded just how important it is for me to be striving to be the Titus 2 Woman.
Titus 2: 4-5 says that by looking at older women. "the younger women will know how to love their husbands and children, be virtuous and pure, keep a good house, be good wives."
I am so thankful for the women of faith God has put into my life that have showed me how to be a Godly woman, many of you are reading this right now. Even more of you are in the same walk of life and age as I am, or even younger, yet you are teaching me to be more like Him everyday. And trust me...... I have my moments where I hope that no one is watching me, but what a great reminder of God's instruction.
In 2 weeks I will begin my 3rd year as an E-Teen Community Bible Study leader. From September to March I shepard ten to twelve 7th & 8th grade girls for the school year. I am so thankful for God allowing me to be apart of young girls lives when they are most willing to listen about God's plan for them. In such an awkward and adventurous stage of life, God loves on them through me.
(2008-2009 CBS) Aren't they precious?
Just wanted to share a little something I had found jotted in one of my journals from yesteryear's. I don't remember writing this one, and honestly I am not even sure if it came from me. I googled the words and it looks like parts of it were taken from a Mariah Carey song :)
You look at me and see the girl
Who lives inside this golden world
She smiles through a thousand tears
And harbors adolescent fears
She dreams of all she can never be
She wades in her own insecurity
And hides herself inside of me.
Wow, life can be tough, especially to young girls who are trying to look like they have it all together....(ouch Lord, wrote this over the weekend-it's early Tuesday morning and I am proofreading- and you are speaking to me. Its' not just young girls. It's young mom's, young wives, trying to keep all the balls in the air to look like we have it all. And yet we have nothing without you...somedays Lord it's me that has forgotten who I am in you)
Lord, thank you for reminding me of your instruction to shepard younger women. It is a special gift to view the world through the eyes of a teenager; thank you for taking me back to those emotions as I prepare to get new faces to love on this year.
Forgive me of losing sight of where you have brought me from.; a scared, skinny, insecure, brace-faced girl ....... to a woman who has found her identity in You Lord. May my daily words and actions of chasing after You show them how to someday "love their husbands and children, be virtuous and pure, keep a good house, and be good wives".
And Lord may I not forget that those same insecurities and feelings of emptiness easily enter the scene of my marriage and my role as a mother. Forgive me for trying to have it all, do it all, and forgetting the most important part...You.
Monday, August 24, 2009
Friday, August 21, 2009
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Just wanted to share a few treasures from my read.
- We all have the same amount of minutes in the day-there is nothing you can do to increase the length of a day
- 2 Corinthians 6:1 tells us not to squander one bit of this marvelous life
- With each tick of the clock, a moment of life is behind you......(chew on this one for a bit). Even as you read this paragraph, seconds passed that you can never regain.
- If I had 30 days to live, I would be more authentic about who I am and more deliberate about how I spent my time
- Am I living a legacy that will endure? Would Kaitlyn know who I am as a person by the treasures I have left in others.
- Psalm 90:12-Teach us to number our days Lord
- My life's purpose: To know and experience His love, to serve those around me, and to live passionately the life He has made for me
- "This is your life, are you who you want to be?' -Switchfoot
- Love this quote- "My children will not remember the words of wisdom I've passed along over the years, nor will yours remember the good advice you've given. However, etched in their minds and planted in their hearts is a permanent picture of who you are and how you've lived before them." - Dorothy Kelley Patterson
- God has an intricately designed grand plan for my life...but so does Satan (John 10:10) 'the thief comes to steal and destroy
- When all is said and done relationships are all that matter-not money or our collections of stuff. None of these comfort, or console our cry, or love us. Our investment in people we care about is the only legacy that has the power to endure beyond our lifetime.
- Ephesians 5:15-17 tells us to make the most of every opportunity for doing good
Lord, my prayer this week is to learn how to unwrap this gift of life. I want to use all that I've been given in pursuit of what matters most-Loving You Lord, and loving other people. Help me to leave those that matter most to me, a personal investment that will linger long after I am gone. Oh, and thank you for sending me an example of how a legacy endures. I sure miss him, miss the moments that I can not share with him, but will never forget that his life's passion was to love You Lord with all of his heart, to love my mom and brothers, and to love daddy's little girl.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Friday, August 14, 2009
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
But...then...God sort of...you know how He does...started pulling on my heart. Finding the perfect picture for my living room is not going to miraculously make our house a fairyland filled with days without me burning dinner! HA!
I've come to realize that I am the heart of our home. Last summer my girlfriends and I read "The Power of a Praying Wife". Stormie says "the husband is the head of the home, but the wife is the heart. I find such power in that. I am the heartbeat of our home! If my heart is cold and angry, than the house will be as well. If my heart is warm and loving, our house will be filled with love. Maybe I've grown a little chilly in my attitude towards all the blessings God has given me. Maybe our house doesn't feel like a home yet because I am not cultivating a spirit of LOVE. Lord, my prayer is that Your presence fills my home as I invite others within its walls. May it be evident that You are the Great Host within who permeates every nook and cranny with Your grace and love. May it be known to my dear husband and sweet little one that my heartbeat is to be a woman who "who's husband trusts her, who does him good and not harm all the days of her life, who works with willing hands, who rises before everyone else to take care of needs like clothing and food, a woman who dresses herself with strength physically and spiritually, one who works until the work is done, the one who keeps things steady, who helps the needy, who makes herself appealing for her husband, one who is proud of her husband and lets people know it, who has much dignity, one who overflows with wisdom and has a kind tongue, one who is not lazy, a woman who's children call her blessed and her husband praises her, one who remembers that charm is deceitful and beauty is vain, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised! (Proverbs 31:10-31)